Nazi

This one was written 18/19th dec 2010.


Nazi

Blonde hair, blue eyes
The symbol of the aryan race.
Masked and smoldering eyes
Stare from your perfect face.
I'm powerless under your rule,
I'm melded by your fist.
For you I'd do anything,
I'd take any risk.

I protect you from every harm
That's in my power to prevent.
And when you have a problem,
I listen to you vent.
Yet I have so little control
Over my own life;
I'm marching to the beat of your drum,
I'm dancing to your fife.

From me you want perfection—
From you so hypocritical.
You always have to be the center of attention,
For you it's just so critical.
You need the eyes of everyone just to feel seen.
You feel the need to rule my heart like a Nazi.

It's a kind of communism,
I give you all I have
Then you decide what I need,
Giving almost nothing back.
I never get any love from you,
That's just not your M.O.
And yet you scare everyone else away,
Leaving me alone.

You make me ashamed of wanting anything more,
A roller coaster of a guilt trip.
I wish your perfect mask would fade,
Your "innocent" facade slip.

Let your mask fade,
Let them see you for what you are.
Under your white perfection,
I bet you're black and scarred.
You break the heart of every girl
That you come across,
Because in your quest, your search for perfection,
You know that you've lost.

Chandler's Song

We pass each other in the hall,
You look my way, I fake a smile.
Same routine, same old game.
I get a "hey", then you walk by.
When I need you, you're there,
And yet despite it all, you can's see what we share.

How can you see me, yet not see?
If you call, I'm by your side.
I'm the only one who's seen you cry.
I want to tell you, make you see,
But I'm afraid of what you'll think when you see me for me,
A lonely girl who wants nothing more than you.
Can you think how much it hurts that before we've even started we're through?

I drive through nowhere, to the small town soon to be my home.
I say home, because "home is where the heart is", and baby my heart is with you.
I don't know why, it doesn't make sense.
Love comes of itself, and my heart breaks when I see how you don't care.

At first you drove me crazy, a jerk who would not set me free.
But at least freedom was a solution, despite the impossibility.
Now I know you, feel your pain.
I love you for so much more, and yet still in vain.
I played my part to well, I think, I almost bought my own facade.
But if you look beneath the smile, you'd see the love, you'd see the pain.

I've tried everything to get you to notice, but you're deaf and blind.
I pay all my attention to you, but do you even mind?
I would give you everything I had to give,
Yet you won't give me the air I need to live.
Can't you see it in my eyes?
Well, honey, here's a friendly warning: What you break, you buy.