Walls

For Jacom

When we met, I was broken,
Frustrated with hearts being
No more than a token that was
Thrown around and wasted.
I was afraid to fall.
Afraid to trust, afraid to hurt, but all of that
Was nothing compared
To how afraid I was to hurt you.

You came, perfect, smiling
Slipped your love-dagger in so silently I
Didn't know I was dying
You knew just what I needed

You'd wait for cues,
We took it slow
But what I couldn't guess
I'd never know
Is that you'd build my walls
Not break them
Not dispell my fears,
But make them

These walls loom over me
Between me and you
The love that I hoped would be
Keeps getting farther from the truth
With every time that I fall
It gets harder to get up
I want so badly to believe
But these walls are here,
Protecting me

I trusted and I hoped
That you would break my walls down
But you built them up
Bricked up the door I had opened for you
And now you're standing there
Wondering where it went
Because it only took a second for me to change
You didn't realize when your labors were spent

The lights I left
In my windows
They're all blown out
Where did they go?
A cold gust cuts my bones
I feel so alone.

These walls loom over me
Between me and you
The love that I hoped would be
Keeps getting farther from the truth
With every time that I fall
It gets harder to get up
I want so badly to believe
But these walls are here,
Protecting me.

Protecting me.

I'm not one to judge
If the walls are wrong
'Cause they're stronger than
The ground I'm standing on
I push towards you,
And they push back and then
Convince me that
It won't do to love ever again

These walls loom over me
Between me and you
The love that I hoped would be
Keeps getting farther from the truth
With every time that I fall
It gets harder to get up
I want so badly to believe
But these walls are here,
Protecting me.

Protecting me.

From you.