I wrote this one sometime in Feb. 2010
TRUE LOVE
(Vs. 1)
Do you ever get the feeling,
That there’s only one for you but you just haven’t found them yet?
Constantly searching
For the star to light up your night,
The one who’ll come to you and make everything right.
Make you feel safe as he holds you tight.
(Chorus)
I am a believer of true love
You find someone out there, and know they’re enough
For eternity
There’s no one else that could be
You see someone smiling, and suddenly it’s real
You feel all those things you didn’t dare to feel
‘cause you know that there’s no one else that could be
Forever.
(Vs. 2)
Other times it doesn’t work
You laugh and you smile, but part of you hurts
‘cause you know it’s not right.
You joke and you play and you try and you fail,
And over and over again, you hear the same tale
Of a boy and a girl, and happily ever after.
(Chorus)
(Middle Thing)
I don’t know when I’ll find you
But I know what’ll happen when I do
I’ll know that you’re forever,
I’ll stay with you forever
How could you ask for anything more?
(Chorus)
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Us
Alright, I wrote this one sometime in January-March of 2009. Enjoy.
US
I was walking through the hall, but he barely even noticed.
I saw him in the hall, but I barely caught his eye.
I thought about his laugh, the sparkle in his eyes,
But he barely even noticed, didn’t think about me.
(Chorus)
Some day, he will know.
One day, he will notice me and then we
Won’t have to wonder if we didn’t find each other,
We will know that there we’re the only ones who could be—Us.
I watched him walking, talking to another girl.
I felt my heart hurting, but I knew inside
I would never, could never, be the only one
Someday it wouldn’t be them, but us.
(Chorus)
I know that he just wants to be friends,
But when I am with another boy or feeling alone,
I am thinking of him and my love makes me whole.
I imagine that he is there with me, and I am home.
(Chorus)
I think about what could be, if he thought of me.
I wonder what would happen if he saw my thoughts
I wonder how he would feel if he held my heart,
And someday I will know.
(Chorus)
Us.
We’re the only ones who could be……….Us.
US
I was walking through the hall, but he barely even noticed.
I saw him in the hall, but I barely caught his eye.
I thought about his laugh, the sparkle in his eyes,
But he barely even noticed, didn’t think about me.
(Chorus)
Some day, he will know.
One day, he will notice me and then we
Won’t have to wonder if we didn’t find each other,
We will know that there we’re the only ones who could be—Us.
I watched him walking, talking to another girl.
I felt my heart hurting, but I knew inside
I would never, could never, be the only one
Someday it wouldn’t be them, but us.
(Chorus)
I know that he just wants to be friends,
But when I am with another boy or feeling alone,
I am thinking of him and my love makes me whole.
I imagine that he is there with me, and I am home.
(Chorus)
I think about what could be, if he thought of me.
I wonder what would happen if he saw my thoughts
I wonder how he would feel if he held my heart,
And someday I will know.
(Chorus)
Us.
We’re the only ones who could be……….Us.
Friday, November 26, 2010
(Untitled Michael)
Aaaaaand another song :) I am so happy with Michael for now, but the other day I was in a melancholy mood, and I was wondering what would happen when we broke up. And it was so sad I started a song about it. It doesn't have a chorus or name yet. I had a chorus, but I decided that it would better fit another song (which I will write shortly while I feel inspired).
(UNTITLED MICHAEL)
(Vs. 1)
I've always worried about
Being on the wrong side of a breakup,
Singing my sad songs,
Wishing we could make up.
But I never imagined what I could do:
That I'd have enough power to hurt you.
(Vs. 2)
I gave you everything you'd wanted,
Now I feel I no more than taunted you,
Holding what you felt you could never have,
Only to break your heart and take it back.
(Vs. 3)
I had a wonderful childhood,Easy even.
Everything I needed, with everyone who loved me.
You were uncared for, unloved,
Left with no self-esteem and such a need.
Was I really right to try to help you?
Or did I only break you beyond repair?
(Middle Thing)
I tamed the beast, I broke you down
So I could get inside.
But when I left, I cut a hole
In your heart, stinging wide.
But I hope, someday, you can forgive me
For being the monster I turned out to be.
I hope someday you'll see the sun,
The light and joy of us, even though I wasn't the one.
And just because the other chorus was awesome, even though it's gonna go with another song, here it is:
(Chorus)
Why do I try? I always fail.
Now everyone will stand and cry "Hail",
"Hail to Queen of Broken Hearts, of Shattered Dreams,
Of the ones torn at the seams
By those who didn't understand.
Hail to the subject-less,
The Loneliest in All the Land."
What have I done?
UPDATE: Okay it is August 18th, 2011, almost exactly 8 months since Michael and I started dating. We've been dating on and off, a pretty rocky (though incredibly amazing, if I do say so) relationship. Today (after a very disillusioning conversation) he sent me a text saying:
I hate you. I hate you so much. How dare you just prance into my life and break me? ("I'd never imagined what I could do, that I'd have enough power to hurt you") ...How dare you leave me bleeding and cold, to preserve your pure thoughts. But at the same time, I adore you because you have brought feelings to this cold fighter. ("I tamed the beast, I broke you down so I could get inside.") You gave me light, but snatched it away just as fast as you came. ("I gave you everything you'd wanted,now I feel I no more than taunted you, holding what you felt you could never have,only to break your heart and take it back.") ...I have also learned that it's best for me not to come to you for help, as it always winds up in more bleeding."
Among the texts were also these:
"I have been down roads you have nightmares about, seen things you only see in movies..." (You were uncared for, unloved, left with no self-esteem and such a need)
"When I tear my heart open and bleed for you..." "Laying here alone and bleeding" ("But when I left, I cut a hole in your heart, stinging wide.")
Michael, I am sorry for what I've done to you. Truly I am. And if you ever see this, don't worry. No one else will. This is a private blog, and only those who I invite can see what's on here. So no one will see the parallels between your message and mine, but you and me. I'm sorry, for everything. <3
(UNTITLED MICHAEL)
(Vs. 1)
I've always worried about
Being on the wrong side of a breakup,
Singing my sad songs,
Wishing we could make up.
But I never imagined what I could do:
That I'd have enough power to hurt you.
(Vs. 2)
I gave you everything you'd wanted,
Now I feel I no more than taunted you,
Holding what you felt you could never have,
Only to break your heart and take it back.
(Vs. 3)
I had a wonderful childhood,Easy even.
Everything I needed, with everyone who loved me.
You were uncared for, unloved,
Left with no self-esteem and such a need.
Was I really right to try to help you?
Or did I only break you beyond repair?
(Middle Thing)
I tamed the beast, I broke you down
So I could get inside.
But when I left, I cut a hole
In your heart, stinging wide.
But I hope, someday, you can forgive me
For being the monster I turned out to be.
I hope someday you'll see the sun,
The light and joy of us, even though I wasn't the one.
And just because the other chorus was awesome, even though it's gonna go with another song, here it is:
(Chorus)
Why do I try? I always fail.
Now everyone will stand and cry "Hail",
"Hail to Queen of Broken Hearts, of Shattered Dreams,
Of the ones torn at the seams
By those who didn't understand.
Hail to the subject-less,
The Loneliest in All the Land."
What have I done?
UPDATE: Okay it is August 18th, 2011, almost exactly 8 months since Michael and I started dating. We've been dating on and off, a pretty rocky (though incredibly amazing, if I do say so) relationship. Today (after a very disillusioning conversation) he sent me a text saying:
I hate you. I hate you so much. How dare you just prance into my life and break me? ("I'd never imagined what I could do, that I'd have enough power to hurt you") ...How dare you leave me bleeding and cold, to preserve your pure thoughts. But at the same time, I adore you because you have brought feelings to this cold fighter. ("I tamed the beast, I broke you down so I could get inside.") You gave me light, but snatched it away just as fast as you came. ("I gave you everything you'd wanted,now I feel I no more than taunted you, holding what you felt you could never have,only to break your heart and take it back.") ...I have also learned that it's best for me not to come to you for help, as it always winds up in more bleeding."
Among the texts were also these:
"I have been down roads you have nightmares about, seen things you only see in movies..." (You were uncared for, unloved, left with no self-esteem and such a need)
"When I tear my heart open and bleed for you..." "Laying here alone and bleeding" ("But when I left, I cut a hole in your heart, stinging wide.")
Michael, I am sorry for what I've done to you. Truly I am. And if you ever see this, don't worry. No one else will. This is a private blog, and only those who I invite can see what's on here. So no one will see the parallels between your message and mine, but you and me. I'm sorry, for everything. <3
Push Me Away
I wrote this one... sometime in Oct. or Nov. 2010. Probably October. But anyways, here.
PUSH ME AWAY
(Vs. 1)
I had a dream you were with me:
You took my hand, you looked in my eyes
And told me that you loved me.
I don't know what to say, it's all I ever want.
But every look and every touch my waking hours haunt.
It's just a bitter fantasy, you'll never see.
The only time I touch you is in my sleep.
(Chorus)
You're never there, you never know
How much you hurt, yet feel like home.
There's always "her", it's never me.
Why can't you ever see?
I'm there for you, you are not
You turn your back to what you've got.
I'm not sure what else I can say,
But I'm broken because you push me away.
(Vs. 2)
I knew you were the one right at the start,
Without thinking or knowing I gave you my heart.
But you throw me away, it's like I'm not there.
After all that I've done, how can you not care?
The dream is over, but I wish I'd never woken,
Because all I'm left with is a heart that's broken.
(Chorus)
You're never there, you never know
How much you hurt, yet feel like home.
There's always "her", it's never me.
Why can't you ever see?
You put me down, you make me cry.
You make me proud, you make me sigh.
How can I get off this roller coaster ride?
I'm not sure what else I can say,
But I'm broken because you push me away.
(Middle thing)
You know I can't say no, so you use me.
I give you all, but you refuse me.
My heart is taken and tightly bound
So if another guy comes around
I still can't love him.
Won't you let me go?
(Chorus)
You're never there, you never know
How much you hurt, yet feel like home.
There's always "her", it's never me.
Why can't you ever see?
I'm there for you, you are not
You turn your back to what you've got.
I'm not sure what else I can say,
But I'm broken because you push me away.
You put me down, you make me cry.
You make me proud, you make me sigh.
How can I get off this roller coaster ride?
I'm there for you, you are not
You turn your back to what you've got.
I'm not sure what else I can say,
But I'm broken because you push me away.
PUSH ME AWAY
(Vs. 1)
I had a dream you were with me:
You took my hand, you looked in my eyes
And told me that you loved me.
I don't know what to say, it's all I ever want.
But every look and every touch my waking hours haunt.
It's just a bitter fantasy, you'll never see.
The only time I touch you is in my sleep.
(Chorus)
You're never there, you never know
How much you hurt, yet feel like home.
There's always "her", it's never me.
Why can't you ever see?
I'm there for you, you are not
You turn your back to what you've got.
I'm not sure what else I can say,
But I'm broken because you push me away.
(Vs. 2)
I knew you were the one right at the start,
Without thinking or knowing I gave you my heart.
But you throw me away, it's like I'm not there.
After all that I've done, how can you not care?
The dream is over, but I wish I'd never woken,
Because all I'm left with is a heart that's broken.
(Chorus)
You're never there, you never know
How much you hurt, yet feel like home.
There's always "her", it's never me.
Why can't you ever see?
You put me down, you make me cry.
You make me proud, you make me sigh.
How can I get off this roller coaster ride?
I'm not sure what else I can say,
But I'm broken because you push me away.
(Middle thing)
You know I can't say no, so you use me.
I give you all, but you refuse me.
My heart is taken and tightly bound
So if another guy comes around
I still can't love him.
Won't you let me go?
(Chorus)
You're never there, you never know
How much you hurt, yet feel like home.
There's always "her", it's never me.
Why can't you ever see?
I'm there for you, you are not
You turn your back to what you've got.
I'm not sure what else I can say,
But I'm broken because you push me away.
You put me down, you make me cry.
You make me proud, you make me sigh.
How can I get off this roller coaster ride?
I'm there for you, you are not
You turn your back to what you've got.
I'm not sure what else I can say,
But I'm broken because you push me away.
(Untitled Nick)
Sorry I haven't posted in a while :)
Here's a song I wrote on or around Oct. 15th about one of my past boyfriends, Nick Seiter. It is, as of yet, untitled.
(UNTITLED NICK)
You gave me what no one else had.
You opened up my heart, then you made me sad.
When the first clouds came, we fell apart so easily.
And the way you are with her, I wonder
Was it ever really me?
Sometimes I wonder if you really loved me.
But yet, if you did, did I love you?
Did I give you what you need, what you deserved,
For all you gave to me?
(Chorus)
How did I not recognize a good thing?
I'm the one that will lose
She's the one that wears your ring.
You broke my heart, then gave me hope
For others that would come along.
You're the perfect paradox.
So though I could say I hate you,
In the end I'll say thank you.
You held my hand, you made me cry,
You made me happier than I've ever been.
You were there, but I was not.
It's not like anything I have ever seen.
I didn't know how to show you my love for you
Like you loved me.
You gave me all, but I denied it.
I hurt you, but you'll hide it.
Then came the day you walked away.
(Chorus)
So here's thank you for those times we had.
The memories are bittersweet, sometimes make me sad,
But when I weigh the heartthrob and the heartache,
What you give and what you take,
I can't help it.
Though I could say I hate you,
In the end I'll say thank you.
Here's a song I wrote on or around Oct. 15th about one of my past boyfriends, Nick Seiter. It is, as of yet, untitled.
(UNTITLED NICK)
You gave me what no one else had.
You opened up my heart, then you made me sad.
When the first clouds came, we fell apart so easily.
And the way you are with her, I wonder
Was it ever really me?
Sometimes I wonder if you really loved me.
But yet, if you did, did I love you?
Did I give you what you need, what you deserved,
For all you gave to me?
(Chorus)
How did I not recognize a good thing?
I'm the one that will lose
She's the one that wears your ring.
You broke my heart, then gave me hope
For others that would come along.
You're the perfect paradox.
So though I could say I hate you,
In the end I'll say thank you.
You held my hand, you made me cry,
You made me happier than I've ever been.
You were there, but I was not.
It's not like anything I have ever seen.
I didn't know how to show you my love for you
Like you loved me.
You gave me all, but I denied it.
I hurt you, but you'll hide it.
Then came the day you walked away.
(Chorus)
So here's thank you for those times we had.
The memories are bittersweet, sometimes make me sad,
But when I weigh the heartthrob and the heartache,
What you give and what you take,
I can't help it.
Though I could say I hate you,
In the end I'll say thank you.
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